Hey google, play ‘passion pit’

I’ve been typing posts on my iPad and the first time I did this I tapped outside of the post box and lost everything ;_; but I did get a good rhythm going while typing, the paragraphs are sectioned off by the song changes :)

‘Tonight, tonight’

I’m super annoyed, but the gist of what I wrote was that I’m voice assistant-averse and pleased I can talk to my home mini softly, like I would in conversation with a good friend (and also possibly so my roommates can’t hear LOL). I also realize quite a few interactions with my roommates happen by talking through closed doors, especially with our poorly insulated house and wanting to stay toasty in our respective rooms. I’m realizing I might not be speaking loud enough when it comes to saying ‘hi’ from my room at the end of the day,

‘Whole life story’

I definitely 3rd wheel my roommates, who i joined last year for the lease, and 5th wheel when both of their boyfriends are over oops oops! Still growing into this semester, it’s the first week and I finally have my room organized in a way that finally feels right! My bed is in one corner and the rest of the floor makes up an L, with my desk space at one end and dresser/books at another. Excited to get through a bunch of murakami books i found in Portland sasadkjfasldkfjs

‘It’s not my fault, I’m happy’

I guess this is what it feels like to have ownership over a space? Taped on the wall I face when sitting at my desk are photos from summer in seattle, a Kiki’s delivery service postcard, a print of Hong Kong, a print that reads ‘invest in platonic love’ — lamenting it took me my fourth and final semester to get it right, ahh! Even with this first week I feel glad to be grounded in one place, even if it’s Pullman (maybe a byproduct of constant traveling last semester). And all of a sudden

‘Ruin your day’

I kind of want to stay?? I’m already so bogged down by a bunch of things (I’m very excited about!) but then I went to a club fair the other day and signed up for a bunch of stuff, Just Cause I Can — film club, linguistics club, spoon university!!, a hip hop team that’s headed my someone i recognize from the qpoc student org ahhh! I feel like a flustered excited freshman again.

‘Five foot ten (I)’

Last semester for that same student org we passed around bags for each person and wrote nice messages to everyone, I was so scared of reading them (or just nervous) and just read them this week, they were all so kind and supportive (along the lines of ‘I’m so proud of your growth’) and i just afkljasdflkj my heart. I have to attribute traveling + the willingness to branch out, and continue to branch out on campus! I have to, to make the most of this last semester! I frankly don’t see myself going out (partying), realizing even when with people I was close with, it was a proxy for social interaction that was really fun, but I hope I’ll be able to get in more intentional ways.

Another thing about intention - trying to be a more intentional student, aka getting a head start on homework during this first weekend! And very very excited to dive into readings! And just read in general tbh,,,,,, I need to shop for groceries and I hope I’ll be able to wander downtown for a bit and lounge around at the library….

‘Better Things’

Classes have been really enjoyable! I adore all my professors and feel comfortable as well, maybe that’s why I’m a little more okay with spending more time alone outside of class. Some side projects are taking off, but all I want to do is sit and read. And do things to make people’s lives enjoyable; rn putting together goody bags for my little sister who got into two schools for CS on scholarship! I miss blogspot. I want pen pals. I hope I send the most mail I ever send this year. I’m not excited about electricity and magnetism but I’m treating it like I’m taking it for the Art and not for Graduation Requirements, so we’ll see what comes out of it!

‘Pay No Mind’

Pragmatic things floating around - studying for the LSAT / GRE, recruiting for 2019-2020 school year (it’s all just a ploy to extend being a student and tinkering on stuff I’m excited about ^_^), daydreaming about study abroad related things. Taking it one day at a time and letting myself enjoy the day-to-day

wine stained sweater from the summer

I need a project manager for my life

tytranosaurusrex:

becoming an adult is essentially having all your friends in different cities and permanently missing someone

(via what-are-fish)

Starting a new tradition in which my parents drop me off at LAX at some ungodly hour like 5am and I bawl my eyes out all the way through the TSA line

what did we do to deserve queer eye

010180000:

on writing well, william zinsser

(via faerybroker)

recovering from a serotonin overload rn, but so so grateful for the raver-sourced kindness of NYE :)

essicajay:

break manages to still feel like a hustle except with lots more homecooking! i’m stressed but also like !!! not *_*

an addendum which is I feel like I’m getting my ass kicked by life in a good way

burningitdownn:

may 2019 bring you your “i’m doing better than i ever was” moment

(via findx)

it’s my sister’s 18th bday and my heart is feeling real tender

break manages to still feel like a hustle except with lots more homecooking! i’m stressed but also like !!! not *_*

lumenflora:

lumenflora:

I see your “romantic relationships shouldn’t be more important than platonic relationships” and raise you “romantic relationships shouldn’t be rooted in anything but strong, healthy, and mutually rewarding friendships anyways”

i haven’t stopped seeing notes for this since I posted it and I just wanna reiterate: it’s really important that you don’t get romantically involved with people you can’t be friends with. Separating a romantic relationship from a platonic context is unhealthy. Your romantic partner/s should always be your friend/s.

(Source: mermithid, via bluegardenmoth)